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Talking On Corners
Author: Riverrun
E-mail: whitezeo@lycos.com
Category: Definite UC, CC undertones, strict dialogue
Rating: PG probably
Disclaimer: Me no own "Roswell"...thank goodness...
Spoilers: All the way through "Samuel Rising". The fic is based on a piccie from the next episode, "A Tale Of Two Parties"...so yeah, that's really the only spoiler that hasn't be officially aired or whatever. ;)
Summary: Some of our favorite Roswellians are pondering with unlikely friends on New Years Eve. Loosely based on "Goodbye To You" by Michelle Branch.
Author's Note: I needed to write GZ, badly. So here is my attempt, with a little Polar undertones thrown in for good measure. :)

"Hey."

"Hey."

"So lemme guess...you're out here brooding about just how much 2001 sucked, right?"

"A little."

"A little? What else is on your mind then?"

"Liz...you...Tess...my son- "

"I get the picture. What about Liz?"

"The fact that everything's changed between us. Since Tess left, everything's just so different - too different. Liz is the same; she's always supporting me no matter what, but now it feels like she supports me in my quest because its the only way she know how to hang onto me; she does it out of seeming desperation."

"I told you how she was when you left for LA."

"I know. What the funny thing is that I know she's doing all this, but I still continue to believe her because I'm clinging to her just as desperately as she is to me. I'm clinging to our love because it's the only good thing I've known. Tess and I were just plain bad and we're, well, we're-"

"...not exactly the most innocent and purest of couples, I know. I told you I understood your relationship; I had the same problem, remember?"

"But you've already weaned yourself off him. I swear, some days...it seems like I can't even live a DAY without Liz!"

"You make her sound like a nicotine addiction, Max."

"In a twisted way, for me, she is."

"Has anyone invented the Liz patch yet?"

"Very funny."

"..."

"You know, I shouldn't have told you about Liz. You're my..."

"...girlfriend, mistress, bitch? I don't know what you are to me sometimes either. But since you are my friend first, I refer to you as my friend."

"So, you're not jealous?"

"Max, you're the one who confided in me that you thought you and Liz were a major case of puppy love this summer. This fall, you gave me something you've never given Liz before. And now, here we are on a winter night still trying to figure out and define what we are. We still have bigger problems than me being jealous of Liz."

"Are you still Maria DeLuca, Liz's best friend?"

"I'd like to think I am, but I have a feeling that I'm the crappiest best friend in the world since I'm dating her boyfriend behind her back. Everything has changed between Liz and me in the same way it's changed between you and her - everything's too different; ever since you and Billy-"

"I liked Billy. He brought out this whole side of you I'd never seen before."

"You liked him 'cause he got me to breakup with Michael."

"Hey, you may not be jealous of Liz, but I was definitely jealous of Michael."

"You should breakup with Liz."

"That was blunt and unexpected."

"Well, it's what I think. It'd be an easy way of breaking the Liz-nicotine-addiction thing."

"Then why don't YOU breakup with her for me?"

"Breaking up with her is the therapy part, Max."

"...can we not worry about that right now? I just wanna spend tonight with my best friend."

"Nice change of subject."

"Thanks. Now, just watch the fireworks."

*****

"Hey."

"Hey."

"Is Max here?"

"Why is everyone asking me that question? No, he's not here."

"You okay?"

"Not particularly. Just realizing how Max-oriented my life has been for the last three years."

"I could've told you that three years ago."

"Thanks, Michael."

"No problem."

"Actually, before, I don't think I would've had such a problem with my life revolving around Max because I loved and believe in him, but now, I feel like I'm just getting dragged along for the ride - its like Max doesn't even care about how battered and bruised I get by his actions sometimes."

"That's Maxwell for you, at least lately anyway. What brought all this deep thought about?"

"The fact that everyone associates Max with me, I guess. It's like I've forgotten what it feels like to be my own person - I feel so dependant on Max, and I hate that feeling..."

"Then breakup with him."

"Like Maria broke it off with you?"

"..."

"Oh, Michael...I'm sorry. I shouldn't have snapped at you."

"No, it's okay. I had it coming; I had everything coming."

"She still loves you."

"How can you be so sure? She doesn't even talk to you that much anymore, does she?"

"...no, she doesn't. She's been distancing herself from everyone really; she's still here, but at the same time she's not."

"It's that idiot Billy's fault; he made her doubt herself."

"You really think so?"

"No. All I think and know is that I'm loosing her because she felt the same way about me that you feel about Max. She felt trapped with me and now, she's free."

"Do you think she'll come back to you?"

"No."

"One of these days, I'll get the nerve and breakup with Max Evans and never look back. One of these days..."

"Addicted?"

"Pretty much. Someone should make a Max patch."

"If they do, can you get 'em to make a Maria patch for me too?"

"Sure. Of course."

"Cool...hey, the fireworks are starting..."

Of all the things I believe in
I just want to get it over with
tears from behind my eyes
but I do not cry
Counting the days that past me by

I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
Looks like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend and I say

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I love
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems like I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes till you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light but it's not right

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

Ohhh yeah
It hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
I want what's yours and I want what's mine
I want you but I'm not giving in this time

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

We the stars fall and I lie awake
You're my shooting star

The End